well ive decided to write a journal.. ill pen my thoughts there.. so ill stop blogging frm now on.. also i wun be viewing other ppl's blog too.. i find tat if u really wan to noe wads going on with their life, ask them.. meet them.. not viewing each others blog.. seems so gossiping.. tats all so adiyos blog..

hmm my social network seems to be in a standstill.. ever since i left primers n waterpolo, i nvr met new ppl.. i miss all the church camps where i get to meet new ppl.. new frens.. well i guess when i enlist, ill be meeting a whole lot of new frens.. den again, it will be all guys.. lolx.. but better den none i guess..

feeling very emo-ing right now.. dunno y also.. maybe cos my sis said i nid to go cpf tmr to help her.. the thought of gg there jus scares me cos she will definately scold me n we will get into a quarrel.. plus she will interrogate me on qns tat i wldnt noe how to reply.. worse is when i cant rmb..

during our ride hm, she said a joke but i jus too tired to laugh at.. usually ill jus laugh cos it is funny after all.. n when i was watching the comedies on youtube, i didnt even laugh.. wads gotten into me.. mus be growing old.. hah..

gosh y r ppl always busy..

long time since i updated this blog.. cos like not many ppl visit this blog.. hmm jus came home frm service straight.. the house is so quiet.. bros n sis all went out.. tot we gonna see hse tog.. haiiz well i jus feel sad for my parents.. all growing up so fast.. none to entertain them anymore.. once i get into army, no one to spend time wif them.. oh well we do have to move on in life dont we?

cant wait to get into ns or uni.. get more frens.. all my poly frens now seems to be nonexistent.. really irritating.. but also cos im not a gd fren too.. dunno how to jio ppl out one.. planning things to do n timings n everything is my worst talent.. hah.. wait.. it cant even be called talent.. i jus do badly at them n give up right aft..

everyday at church seems gloomy n gloomier.. ppl dun show n dun even give a reason or even a short sms "im not coming".. i guess they find it okay.. the only reason im still here is cos every time i go to service, i rmb the times my fren preach to me, the ppl i meet during tat first day.. the warmth jus disappeared.. its getting awkward.. feel like going to those camps i used to go to meet new ppl.. ppl who wun feel awkward when u tok to them..

well mus more in my mind anyway.. but the more i type the more sad i feel.. so i shld chunk them all aside n stay positive.. take care to whoever is reading.. adios

jus accepted mech eng in ntu.. i dun really noe whether its the place where i wanna go.. its kinda sian to study engineering esp aft 3 yrs of it in poly.. plus seeing my family in engineering jus scares me.. the workload.. the male environment.. gosh i really hope more gers get into engineering sia.. like wad mike used to tell me, gers makes a diff atmosphere.. lol n i truly believe tat aft a long schooling with guys.. -.- well dunno wad to post abt anyway.. 2 more months till i get out of my mum's company.. i can den really enjoy.. hoping my frens wld be still free by then.. =/ take care ppl, esp frm swine.. sounds serious n its no joke.. so try not to get sick ba..

In certain times of our lives, we will meet people so much like us.
We walk through the same journey, yet at a turn, we take different routes.

haiiz 3rd week only n me n my frens r sick of the work we r doing.. so tired n so irritated by the job.. air balancing n data logging is our job.. sounds simple but its insanely tidious.. my whole body is stretched to the limits n my body clock is turned upside down.. this was my shedule last week:

sat 12.30pm-12am
sun 9.30am-10pm
mon 6pm-7am
tues 6pm-8am
wed 3pm-8am
thurs 3pm-7am
fri(offday) 3pm-9pm

n still have weekends to work.. gosh.. its like sai kang but nid to use brains too.. i think its more xiong den army.. lol.. 17hrs of work a day can kill me.. sometimes i tot ill faint.. well im only looking forward to after the project.. hopefully find some ppl to go overseas with.. im so gonna go somewhere far.. a reward for this sacrifice i made.. lol.. sadly my work hours clash with church timing.. i really wonder wad God is teaching me now.. i seek n i seek, my trials become tougher n tougher.. helppppp...

hmm ill graduate in 2 days time.. 1 last tough paper.. but lazy to study.. lol.. anyway my graduation has no holiday right after it.. will be working for my family.. dunno happy or not.. cannot really have leave to go for graduation trips.. probably only for 1 or 2 days allow.. but im kinda sad if i cant go vietnam wif my frens.. well tats if any1 is planning.. i only have the cycling trip to msia and malacca trip to look to.. both r 3 days nia.. better den nothing i suppose? well my work wif my parents might also mean ill miss alot of time i wanna spend wif my frens.. i also plan to run, swim, workout during my holidays.. hopefully ill have enuf time n energy to do so.. lol.. well jus waiting for the last day of sch... tho i wun be spending it outside.. nid to go home for work briefing.. im outta here.. adios!